Cant really tell if its just me or its actually something around me that is changing... or is it actually just me... but then since i know that someone of who i know also knew that changes around me that i thought was happening is actually real... but those who actually going through this actually doesn't even notice the changes they are actually going through....
hmm... i'm not saying that this is a bad thing... or even a good thing.... well... changes can be good... or even bad... but for some reason, changes can bring both goodness and badness together... it might be a good thing to that particular person who actually changed... but not to others.... or in some rare cases it would be in the other way round or worse if badness goes to both sides... :S but what i would like to see if that goodness goes to both side... which is very very rare...
going through this kind of things actually makes me wonder what is so good about changing to a better you?? to me its kind of seeing a different person towards that someone i knew actually changed... awkward feeling goes along with that as well... but then there's no point telling them that they have actually changed(if its a bad thing)... since they will never admit that they actually do... plus there is nothing much we can do about it...
some people actually don't respond to this kind of shit... one of the reason is because they don't give a damn about it... solitary character... or even cold hearted... :S... sometimes i wish i could be as cold... cause u wont feel a thing if shit happens... even though it relates to u... something i learn from studying a character of a friend of mine... actually noticing it not studying... :P... can easily neglect shits that happens around you and act as if nothing happen at all...
just wish that my life's story line stays at the climate part... not d beginning... not the end... but whats life if there's none of the rest... i'd say its pretty awesome... :)... but then its just a dream... something which will never happen in real life... i guess ive been thinking too much lately.. well, maybe its just the way thing are... but why should i give a damn??? ggrrr!!!cant seem to ignore this kinda of thing easily... trying my best to just leave it the way it is and move on... :)... yeah!!! what the crap did i just typed??? :S
